krystle

italy.....ermmmmmmm

2008-08-24T23:46:40Z

Im back from Eeeeetaly. The holiday was an abject failure. It far surpassed my expectations of holiday horror. I will NEVER EVER EVER again be taking TFH on holiday with me. We were staying on a campsite near Lido do jesolo, hot, sunny, humid, big and just like Butlins......

So far, so not particularly good. The sprog and her friend didnt behave that well. The not greatness started at the airport, when we arrived at 5.30am, only to notice the girls had matching love bites. not littlies either... great big purple monsters. Amie (my friends 16 year old daughter) also had one on her chin. Apparently her boyfriend was drunk and "missed".

The journey involved lots of sitting, waiting, spending money on cold drinks, missed buses and grump. We finally arrived at 7pm :-/

Then, first night they got a warning from the security guards for talking on the way home (at midnight). Apparently talking isnt allowed. Their passes were confiscated, and we were woken up at 8am by the manager to be warned if there was any more "trouble" we would be kicked off site.

Second night, they both got drunk and ended up fighting. With each other. One arrived back at the caravan with a black eye, and the other a swollen bruised black cheek. What they failed to mention was the passes had been confiscated again. We found at 10.30am as we stepped off a ferry in Venice, only for the phone to ring. "MUM, can you come back please??? we have to leave the site by 1pm................"

SCREECHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

So after seeing a whole 5 minutes of Venice, we headed back, and spent half an hour pleading with Senor Martin, campsite manager and Hitler lookalike. Luckily he took pity as we promised fervently that there would be no more trouble, lots of quiet and strict supervision. Phew.

So the next 3 nights 2 sulky teenagers spent every day and nght with us, not allowed out, no drinking, early nights.

By thursday we allowed them out for 2 hours to the internet cafe. result? they were walking home behind a group of noisy germans, who all had passes confiscated, and they had their passes taken again, despite the fact they had been walking in silence...........so yet again saw us at the main office at 8am pleading to be allowed to stay. Fortunately Senor Martin was off for the day, And Senor Roberto took a shine to me...........

Bleeding hell, it WAS hell.

Nice beach tho, lovely pools, but everything closed on the dot at 11pm, so not very much to do!! Plus it was 80% humidity the whole time and the entire site seemed to be inhabited by Dutch people. Very pleasant, but very unsociable!

It was a relief to get home really,,, after landing at stansted late at midnight, picked up hire car at 1am, and finally landed back here again at 5am.

NEVER AGAIN.

TFH has been on lockdown since we got back. Im so disappointed in her after we'd seen such improvement over the last 6 months.

Tons more to post but it will have to wait.

observations

2008-07-31T00:07:06Z

1, losing weight is fab. My stomach is flat. Sadly my boobs are flatter. Trying on bridal underwear last weekend, i find my usual B cup gapes. Not big to start off with, this is distressing. Even more so to find the A cup size fits :(

i havent been an A cup since i was 14. Now at the age of 39... im an A cup again. How long til aa?? 5 days of salad or 20??

2. There is some pretty piss poor poetry on IC right now. I know. Dont read it. BUT.. cant help it. Its pissiest ever poor too.

3. WHY does a 55 year old woman write a weblog about the fact she has been "bratting"?????
Triple puke

4. Im going on holiday to italy on saturday with my beloved daughter, best mate and best mates beloved 16 year old daughter. Apparently it's going to be raining all week in Venice. Deep joy. Ive fucked up flight times in the quest for a bargain, so we set off from Newcastle at 5.30am... arrive at campsite in venice at 4pm. might have been quicker to drive........

5. Final wedding invite writing coming up. Anyone on friends list who i havent got adresses, please mail me on IC and let me have your adress. Invite to night time to follow.

back soon!! (ish)

allellooooooooooooolya!

2008-07-24T22:24:50Z

have new dress, and it FITS! the last couple of days have seen panicked whizzing round bridal shops. Couldnt find anything i liked. Until tonight. I had to arrange an appointment at the shop as they have a big sale on and are v busy.

So i gave them a description of my ideal dress, arrive, and they have preselected 3 which i might like. 2 are horrid, the 3rd is gorgeous!!!

Try it on, and it fits perfickly!!! (although i cant afford to put on even a single pound- i think the expression is "fits like a glove")

And? Its in the sale, reduced from £899 to £199!!!!

A whole 15 minutes after arriving in the shop, i leave with my brand new dress. Hurrah!!

realisation...

2008-07-19T00:40:46Z

my dream wedding dress doesnt fit.

It isnt ever going to fit.

I've lost 1 stone 4 lbs, but im just never going to be size 10.

I bit the bullet tonight and tried it on to see whether "hope" was possible.

It isnt. It zips up the back.... and the zip is 3 inches apart from top to bottom. As i cant physically lose any more width from my back, it wont ever zip.

Booger.

9 weeks to go. Back to the drawing board...... Joy

god

2008-05-28T20:25:10Z

i am sick to death of decorating. Seriously, utterly pissed off with it.

Last weekend saw the front room being sanded and varnished, so all the "stuff" from the front room was boxed up into the back room (im sure these rooms have proper names.....)

Then tuesday and the kitchen fitter arrived to start fitting new kitchen. So the kitchen was boxed up....and put into the back room!! There is barely space to sit, never mind see the telly.
Then first thing tuesday, and the water and electricity were turned off, as the first job was to replace all the electrics. Marvellous... 3 of us sat with nothing to do, no room to do it in, and couldnt even have a coffee. Then i came on my period, but couldnt use the loo as it wouldnt flush... So i ended up going to work in the afternoon to escape, despite being on holiday.

Anyways, the kitchen is nearly finished, tiling and work surfaces left to install tomorrow, then hopefully all the boxes can be unboxed and we can breathe again!! Its absolute chaos!! mess, rubbish, dirt and boxes everywhere you turn, in the hall, bathroom, spare room. Its driving me demented!!

Hopefully it will be a wee bit less chaotic by the weekend as we have guests coiming, then after that need get the wedding arrangements sorted out!! AND FINISH OFF THE PAINTING! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

belated update

2008-05-10T00:03:42Z

work- Tuesday saw notices being handed out to all those affected by redundancy. And........out of 9 in our department, 7 got them, and i was one of the 2 that didnt!! On the one hand i felt such an overwhelming sense of relief that i felt sick (yes, money is *that* tight right now). But then immediately afterwards felt ever so guilty for that relief, as 4 members of staff dissolved into tears. One is a single parent, recently separated from partner and only purchased her new flat 3 weeks ago. She hasnt even made a mortgage payment yet. Another is trying to sell her house after splitting up from her husband, and yet another had news last week her husband has been made redundant.... Im not going to start ranting again as im liable to set the keyboard on fire.

home- decorating continues. Does it ever finish?? starting to feel like i live on the Forth road bridge.

K has a couple of job applications in, so fingers crossed he finally gets something that pays him the wage he deserves and is permanent!!

Becky is.....Becky. With 2 GCSE exams loooming next week? She isnt allowed out through the week, so spent every night watching Heroes and Desperate housewives, until tonight when she came in smelling of drink. She reckons she knows "everything" already.......

I disagree. She offered to do my hair and makeup on Wednesday. She had a few wedding "ideas". An hour later my hair was scraped back into a bun thingy, glued down flat with hairspray til it was solid, and hair clipped into lots of intricate curls. I had an orange face with the teen tide mark, blue eyeshadow and thick black eyeliner. All that was missing was gold hoop earrings.

Nor does she know what revsion is.

Weekend- popped over to the Metro centre tonight to change her bridesmaid dress. K managed to completely cock up my wedding colour scheme last weekend lol. Yes i can lol now... but having spent months waving a magazine in his face with a gorgeous chocolate brown thigh length single breast suit and ivory accessories, and having K agree it was luffly? we arrived at the hire shop and he promptly went for black. When i pointed out it wasnt brown.. apparently he never liked the brown, and just liked the style......

I may have looked pale and distressed as the elderly shop assistant kept asking me if i was ok and started patting me on the back.

So, out goes chocolate brown, ivory, pale gold and bronze. In comes black, ivory, mocha and pale pink....... and im not even a bridezilla!! (although it was VERY exciting when our flight tickets arrived today for the honeymoon) :)

Tomorrow, got friends coming to stay YAY. I cant wait!!!! And then sunday night a wedding reception. Its my brother's best mate who is getting married to his wife's best friend. That sounds a bit tangled......it isnt .. i dont think.....

all that glitters...

2008-04-25T23:49:50Z

and all that. Today at work in a fit of inspiration (boredom) i actually cleaned out my handbag. Over the years the handbag has gone from little and fashionable to bigger and fashionable and now hovers around big and ugly but very functional and carries EVERYTHING. But everything tends to leave bits and pieces of ick and dust.. so i cleaned it out today.

In doing so i managed to spill a little jar of loose, pink glittery eyeshadow which then billowed up into a big cloud of sparkle, enevloping me entirely before settling... everywhere! And thereafter i spent the rest of the day sparkling away, dusting it out my hair, eyelashes, trying to brush it off clothes and face. It is in files, on my desk, and bits appeared on everywhere and everyone over the course of the day. And yes, it looked very fetching on my boss's beard :-D.

Thank god it's Friday.. other than glitter matters, had an entirely shit week. Last weekend was brilliant, but seems such a distant memory. We managed to get ourselves down to Spank'd last Saturday to meet up with Cait and friends, and what a fabulous night! The venue is brilliant, loads of different rooms, seating, bar, music and space! And it was so, so great to catch up with Joolsy who i havent seen in FAR too long. And then who should turn up but Gigglebox and D, and finally Simply_D!! What a lovely surprise.. i enjoyed myself more than i have done in ages!! And the night was finished off with a half pint of wine... excellent stuff!

But then Sunday morning and i woke up at 7am, shivering and sweating...at the same time. By 8am i was sat in a steaming hot bath, and by 8.30, hanging out the hotel window trying to cool down. We set off home at 10am....unheard of to be awake at that time on a sunday, never mind showing signs of life. And the following 2 days were taken up with snuffling, sweating, coughing and sneezing. Even a sickie on Monday didnt perk me up as i slept most of the day.

Luckily i survived :-D and now finally feeling marginally better... just aswell with a hen night to attend tomorrow night! sadly the hen is very rich and chose the most expensive venue in all Newcastle for a meal, drinks and disco. I have a couple of mini bottles of wine to smuggle in courtesy of the new clean, glittery handbag tho... although i really feel i ought to be beyond smuggling at my age *sigh*

And day time tomorrow, we are off to look at flowers ( i think). Having organised absolutely nothing weddingy much, we suddenly realised that 5 months isnt very long!

It isnt!!! anyone from my f-list, keep 19th sept free (night), and if you could let me have your adresses (those i havent got), please mail. Yeehaaaaaaaaaa :) :) :)

bah humbug

2008-04-18T15:12:33Z

Thought i would treat myself to some new work clothes at lunch time. Sadly not to be. Either M&S make tops for freakish people with dwarf arms, or else i am descended from an orangatang..

Still, managed to splurge on some verrah nice make-up, entirely unsuitable for work.

And almost the end of the week......roll on the weekend!!

fly by post

2008-04-14T00:40:06Z

bum. our internet has been disconnected as of yesterday after finally binning virgin... but i forgot to book the sky engineer to fit the new wireless router. So we are sans internet on the whole til 21st. NOT great when im on hols this week, do all my banking online, have things to pay for on ebay and post, emails to reply to and thank yous to send. all my work research is generally online and waiting to hear about 2 orders, plus post a cpl of things here and other places............

Have just discovered my palm can pick up next doors network, but its hardly on, and the palm screen so small that big pages, like BANK PAGES and ebay wont load up. And trying to write anything would be best described as laborius.... to say the least. one thin pen, letter by letter on a tiny abc pad....

back next week.. hopefully...

Belated Happy birthday to........

2008-03-26T23:19:20Z

Shali!!! sorry this is a wee bit late. At least it wasnt a month late,,, like Lollys :-/

anyhoo, big fat hugs and see you very soon xx

in other news, i can now recount the entire first chapter of Great Expectaions. And ive not even read it. I rawk :)

got fat club tomorrow,, i can tell. Just spent half an hour rooting through wardrobe for light, summer clothes. Still, its going reasonably weel, 6 pounds lost in 3 weeks. Only another 10 tons to fit into *that* wedding dress.

Its snowing!!

2008-03-21T20:03:49Z

Obviously because winter has ended and it's the 1st day of spring. And it isnt nice fluffy snow, it's driving sleet type combined with a hurricane.

Had a lovely day off......well, it was nice being off. Spent most of it painting a ceiling. I managed to almost wobble of the chair i was precariously balancing on, jerked my shoulder violently, and the next thing i was in screaming agony, and it was sort of hanging forward at an odd angle, and i couldnt move my arm!!! Keith came sprinting through, no doubt alerted by the howls of pain to find me weeping. The pain was unbearable. i finally managed to stretch my arm out, and do a big circle and as my hand went backwards over my head, it seemed to "pop" and was back to normal.. save for the tingling and pain radiating from shoulder to hand. And it's still really painful! No idea what was wrong with it??!

Still, it didnt stop the painting.. i got the step ladders out instead. Heroic or what :)

Got another 3 days of decorating looming as ive decided i really want to sell this houses asap, buy something a little smaller and dilapidated to do up, and release some equity so i can get some of my debts paid off. But, trying to do that, and arange a wedding gets a bit time consuming....weve still got no venue lol. At least im down to 4 dresses now, having sold 2 on Ebay for a decent profit!

And finally, my niece is back home, fully recovered and in good health. It turned out to be some weird viral infection that a few babies had, as there were 3 of them in the ward at the same time, all with the same symptoms. I dont think it was definitely viral meningitis although they all dad all the symptoms and the rash.. strange.

Anyhoo, off to run a hot bath to try and soak the aching shoulder. Need to be fit for the exciting weekend ahead... painting. Happy easter!

Phew

2008-03-12T14:27:31Z

My niece has improved some more, and the only residual worry is that her temperature is still very erratic. Bacterial menginitis has finally been ruled out. May have been viral, but if she continues recovering then home tomorrow hopefully! What an AWFUL few days of anxiety it has been!

Life is therefore gradually returning to "normal". A day working at home yesterday saw me do battle with Ebay whilst trying to list 2 dresses for sale. The photos wouldnt load up, then when they did, the description had disappeared. I tried to email the help department, but when i ticked for help on "selling" and pressed continue, it just flipped me back to the same page saying i'd omitted to complete it. Snark.It eventually took 2 flipping hours!!

Ready for the weekend although it's only wednesday. I feel washed out and mentally exhausted. Fat club tomorrow...given the level of starvation i feel im experiencing, i ought to lose at least a stone or so. And then friends coming over on Saturday night to look forwards to. yay.. it's been too long!

Update

2008-03-10T23:19:12Z

Hannah has improved slightly and is feeding ok now, to the point that she has even put on weight in the last 24 hours! But her temperature is still very unstable and keeps shooting up, which has left the doctors perplexed. She is also dehydrated so they are going to put a tube in to help keep her hydrated.

Still no formal diagnosis. The results of the first lumbar puncture were too contaminated with blood, so a second was done today on the poor little mite :(

Results should be tomorrow. She isnt out of the woods yet im told, but there is definitely an improvement. With every ounce of my being i pray it continues.

my niece

2008-03-09T13:49:28Z

Hannah, who is all of 9 days old was taken into hospital last night with meningitis. I've not managed to speak to my brother but apparently he and his wife are besides themselves with worry and when he spoke to my Mum this morning, he was barely able to talk through weeping.

No-one is sure where she picked it up from, save that his other daughter Amy had her meninigitis vaccination on Wednesday. Could it be from that? No idea.

Anyways, i feel very anxious and upset, on tenterhooks waiting for news. If anyone is reading this, please say a prayer for Hannah.

Nothing like..

2008-03-08T21:24:29Z

A good old stomach upset to poo the pounds away. Having spent the last 24 hours on the loo i am now 4 POUNDS lighter!! Think i need one of these every week!

Ho hum...

2008-03-04T16:59:48Z

I think i'm being swept away with wedding dress fever. Not the wedding itself.. just the dress. Or dresses actually. I am now the proud owner of 6 different dresses in fact. Oops. Dont ask...

And as ive put on a stone and a half since stopping smoking, none of them fit!! So, ive started smoking again, back to fat club, and joined a gym. I have 6 months to lose 2 stone... easy peasy? Prob not *sigh*

Other than that, life is ticking over as normal.. very up and down due to the presence of a certain TFH. She managed to get herself excluded from school for a day before half term for shouting at a supply teacher, so spent the entire half term holiday in the house with no money. The end of the holiday was very welcome as i find it exhausting and challenging just being around her.

My brother's wife gave birth to the second daughter (smirk) last Friday, so im now the proud aunt of Hannah Emily. Their other daighter Amy is still only 14 months old, so i guess things are going to be interesting at their home.

My brother finally apologised to me over the money issue *faint*, so they came over on Mother's day with my parents and i made dinner for everyone. Becky finally produced a card and a 20p bunch of carnations at about 4pm. Astounding effort on her part.. not. After what she has put us through over the last 12 months i deserve a new car at the very least!

Anyways, am now off to investigate the contents of the freezer and see if i can find a corn on the cob. IM STARVING!!

Dont read this if you are of a "delicate" nature.

2008-02-12T16:37:40Z

I am gradually filling up with poo! Not smoking has wreaked havoc with my toiletry habits. Specifically wreaked havoc with my ability to poo.

In the olden days (ie the smoking days) life was simple. Get up, eat breakfast, drink coffee, have cigarette....poo.

Get home after work, have dinner, bath, cigarette.. and poo. At 11pm, every night.

Nowadays it's get up, eat breakfast, drink green tea, sit and try and poo. Possibly produce a pea-sized "thing". Mostly dont, but spend lots of time trying.

Often spend large amounts of the day passing wind and pretending it isnt me. Occasionally have to go and do the business at work *shudder*. This proves challenging when i require the toilets to be empty, when over 70 people now work in my office, and we share one bathroom with 10 cubicles. Up to 30 minutes can be wasted hanging round outside waiting for the coast to be clear for a mad dash. Generally when i finally get peace, someone will enter half way through, meaning i either have to "pause" if possible, or flush lots hoping it wont be heard.

Other times i wont go for 3 days at a time.. and then wonder how ive managed to put on 8 pounds in one week. It isnt fat. Its poo!!

I also most evenings passing wind and pretending it's the dog (or sprog)

And when it finally arrives,?i lose hours..

But, enough of my toiletry habits!!!

My brother just rang me. This is little alcoholic brother as opposed to big swindling thief brother. Little alcoholic brother has just been sacked from his job at the DWP. The reason is that he was receiving JSA for a year AND working on the side (albeit the work constituted 10 hours of security work per week for only 4 weeks, which he supposedly thought was ok.... )

When he applied for the job at the DWP he then gave details of the work on the side in his CV, despite the fact he was supposed to have not been working. Result? He's now being investigated for benefit fraud, and the DWP say they cant emply someone who is being investigated for benefit fraud. DOH!!

Boobs!!

2008-02-06T12:32:51Z

The only positive thing about this putting on weight issue, is that i have grown the most stupendous boobs!! In the space of 6 weeks, i reckon ive gone from 36B to C or even D! They are like boulders! Ive been sitting having the odd squidge myself from time to time as it's so bizarre!

The weight prob isnt improving. After last weeks nightmare WW meeting, which i thought might horrify me into starvation, ive carried on happily munching at much the same pace, anything and constantly. No doubt i will have gained another 5 pounds or so tomorrow... Although i have succumbed and joined the JJB gym near my work.

I went for my induction on Monday night... and LOVED it!! *shock*. I usually hate any kind of structured exercise programme and the whole concept of gyms horrifies me, but, having done the tour thing and tried out a few machines, i really, really like it!!

It's very big, airy, modern, has a gorgeous pool, all the machinery is spread out, with different types of machines grouped together .. Much like most gyms i suppose ;-). And they have a fantastic programme of classes including kick boxing, combat, pilates, salsa, fitball, step etc , all the usual aerobic stuff, circuit training etc.

And the classes start from 6.45 am.. so theoretically, i could do a class early, finish at 7.45am, shower, change, and be in the cafe for coffee and toast at 8.15, arriving at work by 8.30ish!

Then again, i wouldnt want to kill my employers with a heart attack. In 8 years, i reckon ive arrived on time at 9am or earlier maybe 9 times in total.

Tonight i see my personal trainer for my personal program to be devised. Lots of fat busting exercise please! And one joyous discovery is that my lung capacity has improved massively already!! I managed 8 minutes on the cross trainer on monday, and i didnt collapse and die afterwards!

Im also avoiding going home. Bratty woke us last night at 4am to inform us the dog had diarrhoea, and had shat in her bedroom. The smell was so bad, it then made her puke.

Nice little cleaning job for a difficult teenanger to sort out when she gets home *beam*

Stolen from everyone

2008-02-01T16:56:55Z

And trying to fill in the last 10 minutes of the "working day"..

1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
A. yarse

2) What was your dream growing up?
A. to be a mad scientist. Achived the second bit, but not the first.

3) What talent do you wish you had?
A. To be able to sing well

4) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
A. Red wine

5) Favorite vegetable?

A. Sprouts! yummmm

6) What was the last book you read?
A. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.

7) What zodiac sign are you?
A. Aries

8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
A. 3 holes in each ear, had some in my bits but they've gone, and no tatts.

9) Worst Habit?
A. Repeating myself constantly

10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
A. Yes. All of you reading this!

11) What is your favorite sport?
A. Footie to watch. erm.. tennis to play

12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?
A. Combination depending on time of month and what's happening in my life.

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
A. Smoke lots and panic. I hate lifts.

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
A. Death of a friend when i was 13.

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
A. I used to beable to blow bubbles out the corners of my eyes.

16) Do you have any pets?
A. A dog called Molly

17) What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?
A. id drag you in, ply you with food and drink and then repeat myself lots when i was catching up on gossip.

18) What was your first impression of me? (hmmm...careful!)
A. Mad. You are all Mad

19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
A. scary

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
A. id have a waist that went in and not be a pillar box

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
A. crime partner :)

22) What color eyes do you have?
A. green

23) Ever been arrested?
A. yes. Dont ask

24) Bottle or can soda?
A. can of pepsi max

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
A. Pay for a fabulous holiday

26) What's the worst thing you've ever done?
A. Cant say.. it's too awful

27) What's your favorite place to hang at?
A. the pub

28) Do you believe in ghosts?
A. Yea

29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
A. walk up gentle hills in northumberland then go for a pint

30) Do you swear a lot?
A. fuckin loads. FFs

31) Biggest pet peeve?
A. my brothers. Both of them. Irritating, selfish, annoying arseholes.

32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
A. Unpredictable

33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
A. I believe in it, but couldnt say im particularly romantic.

35) Do you believe in God?
A. Not sure, would describe myself as agnostic

36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
A. nope, im the last one to do it ;)

"a delicate matter"

2008-02-01T16:35:04Z

Our local constabulary landed on our doorstep yet again on Monday night about Bratty. She happened to be out, so the policeman asked if he could come in about "a delicate matter".

The delicate matter turned out to be her having sex on a car bonnet and someone filmed it on a phone. The film then got passed round an entire high school's year 10, before being found by a teacher who reported it to the police.

The police had managed to identify the lad involved (Liam, aged 15, thick twit), and he was panicked into identifying Bratty as the recipient of his attentions (as it wasnt clear on the film).

So the police had called round to make sure it was consensual, and also to warn her it was illegal and she may be subject to criminal proceedings. They returned the next night to have a "serious chat", which left her embarrassed and upset. GOOD. We then went on to have one of those loving mum/daughter conversations about self-respect, morals and valueing oneself...

But it astonishes me sometimes, what a throwaway attitude they have to sex. It isnt seen as anything special or to be kept for a loving relationship, but purely as a bit of fun, accessible, free and a laugh?!

In this particular case, she had apparently lusted after Lovely Liam for months, then when she split up from Phil (the ex) she found out he was cheating on her, she decided to piss him off by doing this, and having fun at the same time, not realising one of Liam's bright friends thought to film it... i despair at her stupidity often. Very often.

She's going to stay at a friends house tonight, thank gawd. K is at work til 9pm as he's managed to get some temping work through an agency, so im off to have a swim after work!! I joined the JJB Fitness centre yesterday after a horrific Weightwatchers sesh. I hadnt been for a few weeks, and found i have now put on 1 stone and 3 pounds in the space of 5 weeks, due to not smoking (and eating everything in sight)

Drastic measures are called for!! I briefly restarted smoking for a night (Wednesday), realised i wasnt enjoying it, and was throwing away each cigarette after 3 puffs. So im still not smoking. But im still starving constantly, so ive stocked up on tons of oranges, salad, cottage cheese, baked food, and veg, and am going to start doing weight watchers properly again.

Finally, almost got the honeymoon finalised. Watch this space!! Its SO EXCITING!!!! :-D

i live!!

2008-01-24T00:54:08Z

I think im far too erratic in my daily habits to ever make this journal "up to date", as i tend to get a latest fad for something, get completely pre-occupied by it to the exclusion of life/family/child/work. I then pick up the pieces a week later.

Im at a "picking up pieces stage" :-D

The latest fad is "honeymoons" and what a joyous fad to obsess over!! save that we wont have anywhere near enough money to do what we wanted. Originally, in the olden days, before my brother fucked up my finances and Keith lost his job we'd chattered endlessly about going to Tanzania and doing a 10 day safari, which would take in most of the northern parks, plus the Rift valley, Ngrongogogo crater (sp), folowed by riding up Mt Kilimanjaro, and a couple of stop overs on the way to near the top. Then would follow 5 days in Zanzibar with 2 days exploring Stone Town and 3 days to slob on a beach.

Total cost? er... fucking wayyyyyyyyy too much at £6,000. But then as neither of us have been married at the respective ages of 38 and 44, we felt entitled to have a holiday of a life time!

That idea is now out the window. No sign of a penny from my brother, so my parents have stepped in and loaned us £10,000 to cover the wedding and honeymoon and try and pay some of my brother's loan back.

The wedding is becoming cheaper and cheerfuller by the day (and smaller), and the honeymon budget is now £3000 for 2 weeks....

So! Ive found about 4 places in Mauritius that sound nice, and we can have 12 nights for £3000 all in. But, they all have something not quite right...so, im stuck. We are narrowed down to Africa or Europe as everywhere else is hurricane season or monsoon, to cold, too expensive, or too far for 12 days in september (so thats thailand, seychelles, india, carribean, south america out and we both dislike america )

We can either go to Mauritius, and have 12 nights in a 4* plus hotel with a gorgeous beach, pool and all amenities including a private pool etc, save there wont be any sign of night life after 10pm other than a taxi to the town 10 miles away.

Or we can opt for a smaller hotel, lovely pool, small beach, lots of water sports (fnar fnar)and almost in the local town, which has lots of little bars, cafes, boutiques and bazaars etc

Both give us the option of days out, snorkelling, sight seeing, dolphin swimming etc, and seeing the entire island, which does look pretty stunning. Both packages will upgrade us to a nice room with sea views, etc as its a honeymoon... But i cant decide between them, if either.

Or. We can stay in Paphos in Cyprus for 2 weeks at a 5 star hotel. Weather will be gorgeous, there is tons to see and do, hotel has stunning gardens, pools, restaurants, brilliant location, albeit a crap beach and Paphos is amazing, lots of little cobbled back streets, local cuisine, ruined temples, sea front to wander along lol. We can also get free honeymoon trips including a landrover safari, donkey ride in the hills, tours of the local palaces, and basically an awful lot more.

My gut feeling is i'd love Mauritius, and it probably wouldnt take the top hotel for me to enjoy it... but, there might be things that would detract? Not sure. Id prefer the smaller hotel probably, as opposed to the one miles out. I do think if we had a bit more money it would be a definite yes, but mainly due to the fact we cant get to thailand as it's monsoon season.

But then i would also adore the luxury of a 5 * in cyprus. But then we can go to Cyprus anytime...

Any views anyone?

Just to give a bit of insight, these are the 4 choices..

http://www.beachcombertours.co.uk/mauritius/hoteldetail.php?filter=all&hotelid=40 (this is the smaller one with crap beach, but near town)

http://www.mauritius-seychelles.com/le-meridien-hotel-mauritius.php (with this one we get "nirvana" upgrade *swoon*= no kids allowed, private pool, private restaurant etc, 5 miles to town)

http://www.hayesandjarvis.co.uk/viewHotel.vm?mitSiteCode=10301&rw.cm=google,ppc,"sugar+beach+mauritius"

and finally

http://www.theannabellehotel.com/article.php?id=30&lang=eng

cyprus!

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dog news

2008-01-14T02:06:32Z

Obviously my 11 year old warty hound has realised something is amiss. I finally got into bed last night at silly AM, stretched out, and discovered 2 slices of toast, some fried egg and a ton of crumbs in the bed, mostly under my pillow, some under Keith's, some even laid on top of the duvet, which i later noticed in my knee..

I doubt it was put there for me lol. But having thought id cleared the whole lot out, i woke up with crumbs ingrained in my cheek and the dog's nose stuffed up my nose. We were breathing the same air!!

note to self. I DO love that WARTY dog.

really

krystletips @ 2008-01-13T02:51:00

2008-01-13T02:52:58Z

Im so upset i cant sleep. So i went and bought some cigarettes from the 24 hour garage at midnight, smoked the whole lot in 3 hours and now i feel sick.

belated happy new year etc blah

2008-01-11T12:35:30Z

Bit late with this, but Happy New Year to anyone who happens to be reading!!

I was so glad to see the end of 2007.. it was a pretty crap year from start to end really, save for us getting engaged.

The year started with my Gran dying, and went from bad to worse. Becky's behaviour spiralled way beyond the realms of anything horrible we had ever envisaged, and we had almost a whole year of drama, police visits, drunkeness, abuse, nastiness and house being smashed up etc etc etc..

Money hasnt been great, then followed the big falling out with my brother over the large amount he still owes me. That still hasnt been resolved properly, although im supposedly receiving an installment at the end of January. We shall see. In the meantime he has decided to completely blank me and my family as he feels i am to blame for this situation.. so i havent seen him, my sister in law, or my niece since early December. This despite me making an effort over Christmas and sending a text. He ignored it. He is such an arsehole.. i cant get over that im related to him.

I would be quite happy to cut him out of my life entirely, but that would create alot of other family problems, plus i would find myself excluded from his social group with whom we go out once a month. *sigh*

Let's wait and see if any money arrives as promised in January...

And finally, to top the year off? Keith lost his job on Friday 27th December. He arrived at work to be told he wasnt required anymore... so here we are facing finacial hardship yet again. Im sick of it.

So what will 2008 bring??? hopefully a bit more good luck, happiness, contentment, peace, and success.....Im not holding my breathe tho.

Oh, and ive still given up smoking. 2 weeks as of today. Im starting to feel like a non-smoker, ive stopped obssesing about cigarettes every second of every day. Its amazing!!

And finally? ive started the year off with a kidney infection. Or at least that's what i thought it was.. but 5 days of anti-biotics havent made any difference and now the doctor thinks it may be kidney stones. Another appointment later and another urine sample before being sent to hospital for a scan sometime soon. Joy, joy, joy...

stopped smoking....

2007-12-29T23:00:01Z

Ive been gearing myself up towards stopping smoking for a while, instigated by a horrid, worrying lung "ache" and wheeze worthy of an OAP.

And last night i finally finished the Allan Carr book, sat and smoked my last 3 cigarettes, then declared myself a non-smoker and went to bed.

Today has been hell.

I reckon ive spent at least 90% of the day thinking about smoking and the other 10% eating. It seems to be constantly just "there" in my head. I cant think about anything else for longer than a nano-second, before the craving rears its head again. I was going to write a long christmassy weblog to try and distract me, but i cant. I was going to ring D today, but i have noithing to say as i am so preoccupied.

This is truly awful. :(